Some of my friends are getting irritated with me because I've decided I'm not going to prom. I'm positive they think I'm just being a flake, as usual. The reasoning behind my choice not to go is much more complex and I know they'd never understand, so I'm just going to rant about it here.
Guys, I wanted to go to prom. I did, but I realistically knew that there would be no way for me to go from the start. I knew that my mom would refuse to pay for anything because she disapproves of the event (which is another complex explanation in itself, so I'll spare it for your sake). I have a job, so I could have paid for it, if it weren't for Europe.
When my mom and I decided last year that we were going to Europe, my dad said that he would let us go, but that not a single dollar that he or my mother earned would go towards this trip. I agreed, because I was so desperate to go. My mom and I have been saving for over a year, putting together our birthday and Christmas money and even getting a piggy bank to save all the coins we would find. Europe was the main reason why I was looking for a job and still have it, despite hating it a lot. 90% the money I've earned working is going towards this trip.
I realized that prom just couldn't be an option, because I'd spend a minimum of $150 on everything. At this point, I'm still a bit short financially to cover 2 plane tickets and 2 weeks worth of hotels, so that money that I'd spend on prom would be worth much more going towards this trip. $150 can cover at least one night at a hotel and some other minor expenses, which is a lot for me. That one night at a hotel in London would mean 1,000 times more to me than wearing a far-too-expensive dress that I'd probably never wear again, stuck in a place with my annoying senior class. If I wasn't going to Europe, I'd go, but I had to make the choice, and I'm personally satisfied with it.
I know everyone's probably thinking "is it really worth it, though?" Why do all of this for just a short trip to Europe? That's a good question. I honestly can't even begin to explain why I want to go so much. The last time I went to Europe (2010) it changed my life. I know that sounds really cliche and such, but it completely changed my life. I don't really know how exactly it happened, but it was one of those enlightening experiences that leaves you completely different. I'm not going to equate it to what Buddha had, but something along those lines. People don't joke around when they tell you travel changes your life. I 100% believe it does.
So anyway, back to prom. No one understands why I'm choosing Europe, or why I can't just go to both. Everyone I know has their parents paying for most of it. I don't have that option, so obviously that $150 seems like a lot more to me when I have to earn the money to go. I swear, nothing teaches you more about the value of money than having to earn it for something. I just wish my friends wouldn't make me feel so guilty about my choice.