Midnight in ten minutes. Time to turn on turbo blogging mode.
Today, I did a bunch of fun things. I went to the mall with my sister, we ate out and (even though I hate shopping), I had fun, though that was probably because we were in the bookstore for two hours.
I can't even explain how relieved I am that I'm not working tomorrow morning. First Saturday of this year I'm not working. Anyways.
Finally getting some relaxation today and enjoying myself has taught me a few things.
I love people. I know I'm always saying "I hate people. People are so stupid," but I honestly love going places and seeing all these interesting people who have families and friends they adore and things they love to do and places they love to go. I love sitting in a chair in a bookstore and watching all the different people, wondering what they're going to buy and what kind of things they love to read.
Even though it's sometimes overwhelming, I love to think about my future. I love to wonder where I'll be in 5 years after I (hopefully) finish college. Maybe I'll be in graduate school, or maybe I'll fulfill my goal of going to a city of my dreams. Maybe I'll be out of the country in London, maybe I'll be in San Francisco, or maybe I'll be in New York City. I love the idea of me working in a job I love, excited to finally get started in a new career.
I love to watch planes flying in the night sky, feeling both excited and jealous of their journeys. Where are they going? What will they be doing? Are they going to see their loved ones? Are they going to travel the world? Will their trip change their life, like my trip to Europe changed mine?
I love figuring out my camera and starting to take pictures with it. I love holding something, knowing that it's entirely mine because I worked hard to earn it. I love knowing that I can finally do something I've been dreaming about for years.
I love imagining that one day (hopefully) I'll find someone as amazing as Augustus Waters (The Fault in Our Stars) that will trade books and listen to music with me and will always travel with me and will be the most fun person in the world to talk to. I love imagining that he'll be able to keep up with me and my constant obsessions and rash decisions and need to see everything and do everything, because I can't ever deny the adventure of life.
I love that even though life is difficult sometimes, it's completely possible to find the courage to love everything and remember the joys and excitements of life.
And, I love James Franco.