Day Three-Something you have to forgive yourself for
A while ago I made a major mistake.
It might seem stupid, but to me it's something I've never forgotten.
I told my sister to "go burn in hell".
Some people might casually just say it without feeling any remorse, just because that's the kind of relationship they have. For me though, I think it's the worst thing I could have possibly said. It's worse than any insult; I basically cursed her.
You just don't say that to your sister, the person you grew up with; the person you've spent more time with than anyone else. I mean, I was just angry and when I get angry, I blurt out things I don't mean just to ease the anger and make me feel better (as most people do). Usually I apologize and things get better afterwards. I never forgot this though, even when all the apologies were said.
I mean, of course she forgave me, but I never really forgave myself for that. It's something I promised I would never say to anyone, and then I go and say it to my sister.
I never really told anyone about it, because to them it probably would seem like I'm a heartless sister. I love my sister, I'm just bad with the words that come out of my mouth. I'm working on it though :)
On a lighter note, I'm having a John Mayer kind of week, where I listen to him almost obsessively. Here's one of my favorite songs. I think Continuum is my favorite John Mayer album. I really hope you like this song as much as I do! :D
PS: I decided to change my background, but I'm not sure if I should stick with it. Yay or Nay?