Tonight has been a revelation. I've realized a lot. I've realized I love what I'm doing. I love being behind the camera. I absolutely adore it.
As I finished editing a short video for my film class tonight, I felt an most enormous sense of accomplishment. To see all those long, useless clips come together into something meaningful; it was just the most exciting feeling. My little film is like my baby. I struggled to edit it. I chose what was important and what wasn't. I made something out of nothing. That's what it feels like.
I have so much work left to do tonight. It's stressing me out, but the fact that I spent my evening working on my film project makes everything more fun.
Don't get me wrong. Film isn't always fun. It's exhausting. It's frustrating. It's even horrible at times. It makes my neck and head ache. It turns me into a giant squid of anger. It takes up a ton of time. Sometimes it annoys me. But those moments when I've accomplished what felt so far away, when I look at what I've created, makes everything worth it.
Lots of cheesiness, I know, but I'm so excited.