Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Forever Alone.

Sometimes I wonder why I've never had a boyfriend.

Of course, there are plenty of reasons why that could be. Sometimes when I'm in school, I see different girls with their boyfriends and I wonder "why do they have a boyfriend, and I don't?" I know that's arrogant and snobby of me, but I can't help it.

To comfort myself, sometimes I just remember that I'm only 16 and I have plenty of time (which, of course, I do). But the pessimist inside me wonders why almost every girl in school has been in a relationship, and I barely have any guy friends at all. I can't help but wonder if there's something wrong with me?

Is it that I'm picky? Awkward? Shy? Not terribly good-looking? All of the above?

Yeah, I sound whiny in this post. I'm between two sides. The romantic part of me wants a sweeping relationship, but the realistic part of me knows that there isn't anyone here that would truly make me happy, and that I'm better off alone to wait for someone that I have a lot in common with.

And then there's the hopeless side of me, which is afraid that my awkwardness and shyness will leave me forever alone. I don't think anyone has ever been attracted to me (not that I know of, anyway), which just leaves me wondering if there's something wrong with me?

My expectations are too high anyways, since I'm in love with famous musicians. Why go for the kid high on pot in chemistry class when you can fantasize about Johnny Marr and George Harrison, two of the most wonderfully attractive and brilliant guitar players to ever walk the planet (not to mention both with cute English accents)?

Good Lord, this is just too much sexiness for one post. It's sad too, because George (left) is dead, and Johnny (right) is in his forties and married.

So in this post I have convinced you all that I am: (a) angsty (b) desperate (c) stupid (d) creepy (e) forever alone


  1. It's okay, dude. There is absolutely no reason at ALL that girls our age need to rush into a relationship or even have one before they're married. Why do the other girls have relationships? Just so it boosts their faux, unimportant, irrelevant "statuses" in school? Who gives a crap?

    Crushing on musicians is sooooo much more fun. High five!


  2. And the worst thing of all is that it's always the 'popular', 'slutty girls' and 'bitchy' girls that have the boyfriends :/

  3. There is someone out there to make you happy and perhaps because you're only sixteen you haven't been around long enough to find him. High standards are good, where could the kid who's high in chemistry class get you in a relationship? Sometimes 'every other girl' has been in a relationship just because rather than because it's what truly should happen. I guarantee that someone out there has already crushed on you at least once and was perhaps too shy themselves to say anything. I do understand you're feeling frustrated and considering the pictures you posted I think you were born about thirty years too late :)

  4. Aww I felt the exact same way when I was your age! At least you don't have the other girls calling you "green" though which was a stupid code that meant you were inexperienced with boys.

    Trust me when I say that the right boy will come along some day though! :)

  5. I love that photo of Johnny. He looks so gorgeous in it. Well...he always looks gorgeous. George too.

    There's nothing wrong in being choosy. There's no point in dating a looser. I wouldn't look solely for guys who can play an instrument cos most guys who I know and who calls themselves musicians are mostly up their own arses and the annoying thing is that they don't know shit about music!
    But anyway, may you find a cool dude sometime sooon :D lol.

  6. Trust me, you don't sound desperate at all. I signed up to a dating website, how's that for desperate for ya! Haha!

    Anyway, I think what you're going through is normal. One of these days you're going to meet someone who'll sweep you off your feet.

  7. i used to stress about this all the time too, i know exactly how you feel. all of my friends were always in relationships in high school and the early years of college, and i never was. then i dated someone my first year in college just for the sake of dating someone, and it just wasn't fun. too stressful and stupid, and it lasted a short time.

    so i wasn't in a (serious) relationship until my eary twenties, a.k.a. now. and let me tell you, it's so much better to just wait for someone who is right for you and loves you for who you are. i know what i'm talking about ;) (not to sound braggy or anything)

    and i am , i know it shows up with weird numbers and letters when i comment.

  8. I forgot to mention I gave you an "I Dig Your Blog" award :)

  9. You have a point. I mean, George Harrison is just the ideal as far as men go. I myself find myself thinking about him every now and again. (This is serious. Anyone can tell you how he's always been my favorite Beatle.)

    That being said...everyone is different. I didn't have a boyfriend until my senior year of high school, and that was because I didn't want to settle for someone who I didn't react to emotionally and chemically. I got a lot of crap from my friends and classmates for making it to seventeen without being kissed at the very least, but then I wound up with the best guy in the whole school. There's nothing wrong with you for NOT having a boyfriend. There's certainly nothing wrong with being picky. You should never settle. Of course, there's a difference in holding out for the best ideal and refusing to date guys you're attracted to because they don't fit said ideal. As long as you're not ignoring your feelings (unless you feel for a jerk, and then you should totally let him because jerks are never going to change) and you're good with who you are, there's no hurry. You're young (and so am I, come to think of it) and you've got nothing but time. No hurry, I promise.

  10. AYMEN SISTER. I'm 17 and I've never had a boyfriend either. The boys I know are yucky and smell bad, anyways.

    I don't know. It hasn't really concerned me. I see a lot of my friends get so invested in relationships and love and blah blah blah. There's a lot of drama. And the thing is, we're young! We have time! Plus, I feel like you learn a lot when you're alone. I mean sometimes I'm like, "Huh? Would this be better if there was someone to share this with?" But hey. We're still wee 'lil 'uns. No need to grow up. Yettt...

  11. P.S. Youtube "How to be Alone - Tanya Davis" - seriously. So beautiful and comforting. Alone is good :)

  12. :D This is seriously too much sexiness in one post Anna :)
    He'll get to you eventually, and you know that :) You're not desperate or creepy or anything, You're simply 16 :)

    Love :)

  13. Ohmygosh i'm fifteen and I feel the same way as you do! But I try to remind myself tha most of the girls with bfs now won't probably keep them.

  14. hahahahahahahahahahahaha I'm not laughing at you. I'm laughing at me. If YOU feel alone because you've never had a boyfriend, then imagine how I feel. Almost 20 and I've never had one either. If you don't think I'm a loser after admitting that, then I'm here to tell you that it doesn't matter. It's fine to be alone. If you haven't found someone worth your time, then there is really no sense in worrying about it, because you're ahead of the game. Why turn into one of those girls who needs validation from every guy who has ever spoken to her? Because whether or not it looks like it, they don't have it figured out either. You're the same as her. Only you probably haven't made as many mistakes because your'e smart. Just sayin'

    However, if you do think I'm a loser, join the rest of the crowd. But we can't be friends anymore.


    Just don't feel alone okay?


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