Wednesday, March 21, 2012

A Collection of Random Thoughts

Hi, blog. It's been a while, hasn't it? Well, technically it's only been two weeks but it feels like ages. Blargh.

Life has been somewhat eventful (but not really).

  • I'm currently in a debate with my friends over whether or not I should go to prom. I know my mom isn't going to buy me a dress or shoes or anything, so if I go I'll have to pay for everything myself. Not a great thing when you only earn $60 or so a week because your bosses are so stupidly inconsistent with hours. My friends offered the idea of taking me shopping for vintage dresses because they know I couldn't refuse vintage dress shopping.
  • I've developed an adoration for the Beat literary movement. By Beat, I mean Jack Kerouac, Allen Ginsberg, and William S. Burroughs. Kerouac is my favorite. On the Road is my favorite book, there is no doubt. I used to laugh at people that said that a certain book changed their life and look at me now, referencing a book that no one has read every 5 minutes of the day.
  • Starting today, I love James Franco. I've never had a particular favorite male celebrity, but he's the coolest. He has a strange obsession with education, pursuing multiple degrees from top universities simultaneously (currently a pHd) and teaching a literature-film class at NYU at only 33! He also starred in some fantastic films, among them Howl, which is about Allen Ginsberg. He even hosted the 83rd Academy Awards. He's a great actor who is so passionate about the things he does, and he's one example of someone in Hollywood who has real depth. He isn't too bad to look at, either.
  • I'm starting to do some art again. I went to the local art store and bought $50 worth of art supplies. I haven't taken an art class in 2 years, mind you, so my skills have severely deteriorated. It breaks my heart to realize that if I hadn't dropped art after 10th grade in favor of band , I could actually have been a decent artist at this point. I loved art more than I loved music too, so I don't know why I dropped art. Stupid scheduling conflicts.
  • Tea is the best thing ever.
  • I'm becoming more open about the things I'm interested in with the people around me. I used to be afraid of what people would think when I told them about what interests me. Now, I discuss books, movies, and music with some friends, and I've found that we have a lot of similar interests within those categories. We've already planned to see a few movies coming out at the local indie theatre in the next couple of months. Besides that, more people I know are starting to get to know me and my interests better. People know the books I like, the things I want to do, my favorite activities, and that makes me happy, because I feel it builds stronger relationships.
  • I'm frustrated with the fact that I want to do so much, but don't have the time or the means to actually do it. I want a Polaroid camera, but don't have a lot of money to spend on film (they don't make Polaroids anymore, so film is hard to find and expensive). I want a DSLR camera (fancy digital photography camera), but Lord knows I'm not getting one of those anytime soon. I want to write and read all the unread books on my bookshelf, but don't have the time. I want to see movies, but don't have the time or money. It's frustrating, because all of these things probably won't help me earn a living, but I'm tired of school and I need enjoyment.
  • I know that sometimes the things I write sound sad or depressed or whatever, but I'm really quite content with life right now. Sure, some things are frustrating, and I'm confused on a lot of stuff like my future and what will happen and friends and everything, but people have to grow up and face reality, even if it sucks sometimes.
This post was long and weird. It's past midnight and I took a really long nap, so that's why I'm probably not thinking straight. Hope this post updated you all on some random things going on right now. :)

Oh, and here's a picture of me with my favorite Beatles blanket.



    1. I never knew that James Franco had so many degrees or was teaching!

    2. I'd heard James Franco was teaching, that's pretty cool. If I had to take that class I would definitely try to get him!
      I was in a similiar situation for prom when I was in high school. All of my friends wanted to take a limo but it was like 70 bucks (of course I was the only one whose parents weren't paying for the limo, so nobody else had this problem.) Eventually I caved and ponied up the cash because I didn't want to drive separately alone. I didn't have a date either and I didn't like how I did my hair and my best friend got sick so we spent the last hour sitting around. Sounds really disappointing, but I would probably do it again (but I'd do my hair different!) You really only get one or two chances to go to prom and while it didn't live up to the hype for me, at least I can say I went...I guess. I dunno. If money is really an issue and you can't swing it, I'd say if you missed it, it wouldn't be the end of the world. I'd totally send you my dress if I knew where you lived though!

    3. I love that you're friends are interested in what you're interested in. One of my friends and I realised the same thing recently! x

    4. the prom I went to wasn't like how I envisioned it. twas like a formal function of some sort and it highlighted the sophomores, made them the stars of the night, since they were the ones to organize the event - the juniors and seniors were discouraged to be part of the student council. i have to admit it was kind of disappointing. but at least it was a gaining of experience. so you should definitely go, just for the heck of it.

      as for the scheduling conflicts in school, it happened to me as well. though i'm glad you found your way back into art. but don't let go of music. music is art in itself, no? i was in a piano course as a kid for five years but i was stubborn and quit it.

      i want to do a lot of things as well. there are just not enough hours in a day it seems. but i guess we have to make do. you're lucky to have so many unread books you're eager to read! i've re-read all the books i have. i wish i could buy new ones anytime i want to but imported books here will deflate my wallet fast.

      as for james franco. you're right, he's a rare gem in hollywood. and definitely easy on the eyes. i like him, really like him. haha :)


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